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Xeno: Behind the scenes #7878
03/07/2019 01:13 AM
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My mom is a bachelor degree nurse and she works as community nurse with new parents. It is actually the same job as the nurse that comes to my home to check in and help us. She helps families around the region she lives. My dad was an electro-mechanical engineer but it wasn't making him happy so he became some sort of glob-trotter. They both have an education, a university degree in their science.

My parents are respectable citizens of Canada with education. I grew up in a house with a big yard. Nothing to worry about for a kid growing up. My mom had bookshelves with a bunch of books. Novels, cop stories, mysteries, sciences and art. There was maybe more than a thousand books about so much stuff. Especially mystery stories. I never read any of them!

I grew up in a good environment, but I was one of those kids that didn't fit this world, nor a human family so...

I have a brother, who is my favorite and the most respectable of all my siblings. He spent 3 years in college in the police technique to become a cop. Almost at the end when he was at a traineeship on the road with real cops on real calls, he found himself in a... morbid situation, and found out that he was not going to work like that. So he went back to restart college and studied children's education to be an educator specialized with kids under 5 years old. He then went to the university to study children psychology and development.

I have another brother and he is a dad too! He actually had a kid before me. I do not know exactly what he studied at the university. Something about sociology and economy or politics. He is a bit of a strong french separatist from what I recall but I haven't seen the man or heard of him in years. He was away before I moved to another province. He is a fighter and my best bro!

My sister is an animal health technician. She works in laboratories and takes care of animals that are for testing. Her job there is highly confidential but she told me that this world is really not clean.... She has her own business for animal products and she has good customers.

There are two others but they are too young....

When I left my parents' home I left high school and went to work instead. At first I had pretty hard and shitty jobs. My first full time employment was the most interesting. I was worker in a distribution center, on a chain production of Vileda products for display and stocking. Then I went to be a garbageman in Montréal until the weather killed me. I started with sweat and wounds.... But I joined a reinsertion program to go back to high school to get my diploma and open more jobs opportunities.

I started to work in the public and found myself dealing with the devil everyday and it was exciting. My best had been call centers and there was so much overtime! Was working 8am to midnight 7 days a week and made so much money! I was living a 5 minute walk from my job and it was such a great time.

Customer service and retention, sales and promotion, representation and public relation, etc ... It is where I was doing the best and I was paid for it. But I became so sick making that money that I made a choice one day. I stopped... I went in a smaller town and stayed on social security while I was doing therapy and psychiatric treatment and that has been it for 10 years!

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2015 with 2 opposite opinions from doctors that were not considered in my files. Still my case seems to be mysterious to them but categorized as schizophrenia. I know that to many people, my diagnosis is their weapon against me and I am not scared to give it. It's actually better to bring forward information ourselves than letting the ones with bad intentions use it the way they want.

I started at 17 years old as an inexperienced and uneducated young man working and breaking my back for my employer and the money I got from them. From scratch with nothing I went to build my beach one grain of sand at a time and filled my ocean one tear at a time. I have worked hard to become what I had to be so I find myself with my beautiful wife who gave me my outstanding son.

One day

One night

Again

Over and over

A dream came true!

Years ago I was seen as a total failure by many. No jobs, no partner, no decent home... But I kept going! I never let anyone bring me down even if I lose fights as much as them. I was nothing but the shadow of the man I could be... I woke up and it took me 10 years to get off that bed and put the foot on the floor. I am getting off the blanket.

I am happy, satisfied and well fed. I have found the perfect love and it is all thanks to Xeno the alien that it happened. I was Xeno and she was Tera. My story, a waste of time and efforts? It gave me health, family, prosperity and love! I will die the way I live: Loved and loving. This is what I do. That is what makes sense and gives life within my flesh and beyond my humanity.

I am not a fraud or a hoax!

I am just a guy that was told things and believes them.....

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I was sick pretty young. Diagnosed with a severe graves injury (basedow). I had two I131 treatment of 30 Mci to completely destroy my thyroid and now I take synthroid every morning. It has been hell for me. They tried to treat me on Tapazole for a few years and it did not work at all. It just made me even more sick but that was before 2009. I think it was still experimental or something.

I've been in several hospitals and I have met a lot of different doctors and professionals. I have been through all sorts of radiation and multiple treatments. I have been checked A LOT and that's where when someone tells me, ''You should go to a doctor''.... I have 4 doctors........ I have met probably over 50 doctors..... I've taken a bunch of pills that made me [beep] sick.........

Just being silly! I am fine right now and doctors don't worry about my head or my mind too much. They worry about my liver that I destroyed with beer and my gallstones or my chronic unidentified abdominal pain that is not the gallstones. What's wrong with me is that I can say doctors have made me sick as much as they healed me...

I have been biologically sick and I went through my hard times too. I've had my challenges and proving grounds about surviving in this modern world. I had to acquire my health. But this is not where I should complain...

I know what is to be powerless, facing an illness and to live with my wounds...

I have been suffering every second for a long time and deep inside was the worst. The most painful trial... The question about my existence and a past that I can feel but can't remember.

I think the beginning of my life was just meant to make me pay for what happened before or what is next. I had to pay for something and I paid. Now I am done with mystical debts and I am free to enjoy my life with my family.

I have been feeling something was against me and on purpose.

I think I was right...

I asked for it!

I will not restart the xenoverse without telling my public what I could get from an alien encounter. Or what I believe is... It is the meaning of their process, a test to pass. Faith is important and mine is in aliens since September 2014. They healed my illness faster than anyone. They just had to tell me simple things that I did and it worked.

Many people who have had to fight an illness used faith to get stronger and win the battle. They called god? We all call something that is a higher power. Doesn't need to be divine.

I have placed my faith and now I enjoy it!



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This topic is meant to explain a little bit about myself to the people who want the facts. I was told recently that I am a little hard to understand and that I'm being confusing. This topic is meant to give the human details to some people who need to understand a little bit more to let me be. Hopefully... I do not mean to be self centered or to keep going making a show of myself, me, me and me with I and myself....

I will talk a lot about my cosmic snail of a wife and my son but first I want to introduce myself accordingly with what some people are looking for: The human facts of Xeno. The man that stands behind the character that is used to cheat one simple rule of no-show! There is a lot out there and I hope that someday I will be able to be seen for who I am. Just a guy...

For now I am trying to paint the background with a new canvas for the ones who want the real behind the fiction. I am a good guy! I am special and funny because I like to entertain and motivate imagination or inspire creativity.

I was in the Baden Powell scouts for two years and I have learnt the basic of chain of command so for teamwork. I have learnt to be a follower to the pact and a leader to my spirit. It was not enough for me so I joined the Royal Canadian Sea Cadets that I served for 3 years. I wanted to join the military but it failed badly because of my medical records.

I was not meant to be a Canadian soldier anyway. Not like my cousin... He is a specialist in anti material weapons. Really interesting but god damn military secrecy... I hope next time I could have a hand on a bone. Military talk between themselves but not much with civilians and sometimes a simple private can have a hold on information. Not necessary much, but at least a whisper on their mentality about it that tells a lot.

As for myself, in the records I do not have military experience, nor have I officially worked for any agency. I did little personal life business until Fall 2014 in which I was mentally disordered enough to believe I work for aliens. I had over 25 different jobs during my exploration stage which was about 4 years before 2009.

I am doing private business and personal projects. That is all and I do not talk much about it because of my secrecy policy. I talk about what is under my charge on my private employment. I am currently unemployed but I volunteer for the forum as an entry level moderator.

My occupation is to be at home with my wife and my son. When my wife will get back to work I will stay at home with the kid.

I am a dad at home!

Many people are sexist and judge me for that because of the old school perception of genders. The man going to hunt while the woman stays in the kitchen! No way... We have a different relationship and in our case it is the opposite. She will go work and I will stay in the kitchen! I call modern sexism those who take it badly. It has been okay for thousands of years for one of the two partners to stay home but now it is not for me?

I do not understand...

Whatever, we are not sexist and we live our way. Eventually later when my health will be better and the kid will have grown up we will probably both work. But this is a distant future!

A distant future....

That I feel everyday.....


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For the believers and followers there is some disappointment ahead. As a human, simple... I am a broken tool that was used too much and thrown away. I was working hard and I broke my back too quick. With that I had multiple illness, I was a bit sick and tired. I did not grow up hard but it was not easy.

I am a little bit lazy on the edge making me fall easily into procrastination and since I am a stoner... 1+1=0 .... But when I am into doing something and I smoke for it, I make it done! I just need not to crash on my [beep] too much. But there you are when I say that I am a larvae! I mean it... But I get through it!

My human past is a boring pain in the [beep] which means I got to put more juice if I want it to be read. No offense or hard feelings! I don't blame myself because I'm telling that to the public since the beginning. No fake just some stories because the truth is hard to swallow without diluting.... I am just putting some coca-cola in your rum. RUM AND C0KE!

Don't get drunk reading. Drunk of madness or fun, whatever... As long as you will enjoy!

I have spent years sitting with gamers playing video games and smoking weed. We were blazing and gaming and watching shows and blazing and being creative, etc. Chill just being on social security with the doctor bill to have the disability status after a while and waiting for the... Noble? amount of money... Enough for rent, bills, weed, smokes and beer.

For a really long time I was not eating. I remember having one small bowl of white, 5-minute rice every 3 days. When I was eating. I also remember eating a lot at the food bank in the morning and having a coffee chilling with the others. I had my coffee every morning for months among the lowest class of society. The unwealthy, the misunderstood, the forsaken, the unlucky or just some screwed up drunk [beep].

I have been shining though! I was not the best of the best to actually make a man of myself. I couldn't kick my butt anymore without hurting myself. Or flying for a fake raise and falling from great heights for nothing so I just end up crashed down, getting worse. But I have been shining and that's all I want. I had people happy to see me walking by them and smiling. Many people had my attention and they told me how much better a day is sometimes when I walk in even just for a second.

I just need to shine and no matter what or where I have to be, that is what I do and what I want. I want to be the sunshine I heard I was once before I crashed for good. I do not remember, I can't tell. I have a medical document stating my memory disorder and my concentration deficit. I got something overwhelming the RAM of my machine... Things get messy easily for me.

I do not like when people tell me I am sick because I am. I was mentally disordered in the past but now I pass the psychiatric check up but I can still say I am sick. I got some other medical issues because I screwed myself up but if I live differently I will be healthy really soon. Then we will see.

Who will I be when I will be eating? I can afford it, but I'm not eating. I know the internet is a hard play ground and I know as a gamer... Some people come by completely healthy and strong and get on a fight while they actually are just bashing some guy that is actually just sick. But the internet has been finishing me multiple time while I was down on my knee begging for the shadow of a hope.

I can stand right now and in a year I will be honest when I say that I am stable. In two year I will be back on my track for a while and stronger than anytime before!

For now, something is making me feel sick and tired too often and I am terrorized to eat because half of the time it hurt so much that I can need morphine to kill the pain. I had 2.5mg IV to drop in 30 or 60 minutes. It was not even the worst I felt but that time there was blood when I puked.

Someone that looks at it can be grossed out thinking about that and I hope could understand that eating for me is a strong fear and I can say that I am always scared the hell out of me every time I swallow something. Mostly because it is when I am not worrying and let myself eat more that it hurts the most.

My wife is trying hard on getting something inside that belly of mine!

but

I rarely eat because I am tired to feel that pain....


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I love music and I play music. I sing and I dance! My son and my wife love how funny and entertaining I am when I am doing well. I can get to be really lazy-tired or hyper agitated and easily mad. My brain goes nuts and then I just need to listen to a song or play something and everything turns right.

The instrument I loved to play the most is the violin. I had one but I sold it to smoke cigarettes. It was a really [beep] up sad deal. I paid like over 700$ and I sold it for 50 bucks! I had a musician's block anyway... I will get another one and it'll be better so I can start to share my musical interest.

I am not an interesting entertainer because I do not yet have all my tools to get started. I cannot invest money in the project Xeno and I am waiting for an improved budget so for now... It is just like I am playing elevator music while I drag up small cards. It is just the waiting time that I busy myself with it a little.

When I will have my musical instruments and audio/video equipment I will start doing something interesting. But for now I do some sort of selfies with my smartphone to kill time and get used to it.

I am not yet started!

I am just preparing....

I want to record music and produce my own video. I want to build a YouTube channel and contribute to associated channels. I want to have fun while digging for the truth. I do not want to be one of those mad researchers that doesn't accept the level of information accessibility of our era. The governmental disclosure is not happening yet so information is suppressed.

We have to dig thinking big but looking for small things. Gather all the tiny fragments of evidence we can find together and get a bigger picture so we understand the smallest detail that is missing. That one little mistake that makes a proof to travel around. We have to be digging deep and hard... But first I want fun. Whatever ufology is into about aliens and the way they see me, as much as I have fun I AM IN!

Are you having fun?

I am!

I want fun in my life and I enjoy the existence of Xeno the alien. Because it is me as myself but I look different. I call myself an alien and the world goes south. I have fun!

I'M IN!

I am trying to be a little bit more realistic not because I want to but because I can. I am just a guy that likes to have fun and in this story I have good reasons to believe that I had at least an encounter with a reptilian humanoid entity. I will dig my case and someday I will have answers. I am thinking of regression but this costs money and I have to be sure it is not hidden brainwash.

When I see how strong there is a worshiping... Shifty!

I had mine for being unclear and shady but it was fun!

I will soon come up with the good stuff but for now I am waiting for specific things to happen. It is a matter of time!



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I just got a new raincoat. When I got home, I was wearing it to show my wife and I was really happy. I was looking great and a little bit sexy. Then I took it off and she inspected it then laughed. She found the merchandise tag... She showed it to me and what was written on it was ''ladies''.

When I say we are not sexist, I mean it.

It could have been on purpose because looking at it I felt the skin of wearing it. It was in the men's section though so it probably got there accidentally and that is the truth. But I love the coat. It gives me interesting curves!

Spoiler alert

In real life, I am pretty feminine or ''girly'' on the side!

I believe in balance and harmony between my masculinity and femininity. I am close to my inside girl and open to it. It is something that feels lighter through this world. It is a balanced mentality and a life of wellness and freedom. I am mad too and you know that! But I can still say that I am pretty chill.

I think we all should be more open to adversity and divergence. Some people are stuck up and there is nothing to do but wait for that day later... They want something? Never mind...

The dual mind of ''gender'' is not only biological or hormonal by my opinion. We live in 2019 that is the beginning of an era of openness and acceptance and those who fight against it will vanish. The only thing they will have done is to be remembered.

I have a lady jacket and I hope it won't lose its black soon!

I was not meaning to get this but it made me realize how something can look good on someone and the only big thing that was making a difference was a label on it! It was just the merchandise tag that made this coat ''wrong'' on me... Before we knew what was the label, the coat was safe from judgement.

That is the magic word!

Judgement...

Something really sad is because of judgement, it's wrong if I wear my coat.

You know where I want these damn labels!


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I do not know exactly what is that they want to read. Who am I talking about anyway?

I came here with confusion and I apologized many times for it. But I was invited to understand a little bit more about myself and now I see a bit more clear. I said I was done. I am pretty much with the alien in me but now I will let the human talk a bit.

I have been working for a market study firm. I was doing outbound call for survey. I was trained to proceed to a phone interview asking questions to the subject. First night it was bad. First day, first project. After three days I was already escalating and assigned to better projects and specialized ''Refusal Expert''.

I had that job of calling you home for a survey and I was doing great! I was an specialist in refusal. Which means my computer was only giving me calls of people who had already refused three time to participate to the study. The hard cases! I was having them! Then quickly I was escalating to better projects which are all confidential.

I believe in transparency and disclosure but I do have my own secrecy...

I spent days calling people asking them a bunch of questions about a bunch of interesting things. I was a good one... But I already had that existential trial inside of me and one day on one bottle listening to one song I felt something different. I opened my eyes to an idea. What if I was wrong?

I have quit my desk job to go work in a grocery store at the till. Putting customer purchases in bags... Empty bottle recycling and garbage bags... Shopping cart to get back and floor to clean. I was looking good with my tie under my work polo. I did amazing and it was fine even with the provincial recession beginning. Once I got syndicated something went wrong and...

...

One day

on

one bottle

listening to

one song

I quit my job and made my boss almost cry and the rest of the team was sad too. I was adopted...

After that I can't tell!

Oh maybe a year after I was back on my seat and wearing my tie. I was working in another call center. Firstline internet technical support. I loved this one! I was getting calls all day to fix peoples' problems and give them a good service. I qualified for an interview for the quality department but I was not interested. All day listening recording... Boring! Then they asked me about taking a supervisor position but I told them I was not ready...

I had many promotion opportunities but I refused them! Not only there... Most of the job I had, I had been escalating pretty quick but at some point, too fast sometimes. I want to enjoy.

I also worked as telemarketing agent. Back to outbound calls! Calling peoples' homes to renew their cell phone contracts, adding services or selling/upgrading their device. I was doing pretty well but I was about to break so I stopped.

I stopped...

Around 25 jobs in like 4 years!

I was successful but for some reason every time I was reaching a good standing, I was just quitting. I have been through the stress of not having an income and things to pay many times! I was in a dilemma. If I was in a job in which there was no improvement of my position quickly I was quitting. Too slow, too bad! And if it happened, I was quitting because I was not ready.

I have learnt!

That is because I was never doing what I wanted to do. No matter the money I made or the social prestige of a generally successful entrepreneur, I was lost. I wanted to work on my computer and I made money working on company equipment. But I was not home and I was not in a subject I was passionate about. I want a life of paranormal investigation, alien idealization and UFO documentation.

I was at that time interested by demonology and occultism.

I am not worried because so far, I always made it!



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Wow, you write alot tongue

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Originally Posted by frankie85
Wow, you write alot tongue


Yo, it's almost time to go! bigsmile


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Before I decided to stop having a job, I was a hard worker. I was truly professional and promising. I was sleeping two hours a day and I was fine. Maybe the excessive amounts of caffeine destroyed my stomach? I have many theories... A switch turned off and I could never get it back on steadily. I crashed after overworking for money that I do not have anymore. I can blame myself.

The 10 years I have been on social security have been hard and the time really long. After knowing only work I found myself in the opposite situation. I had a lot of money but I did not have time and then I had a lot of time but did not have the money! Being on social security was in its way harder than hardworking. I could become crazy because I was feeling time move so slowly!

I've been walking around town days and nights listening to a lot of music while thinking.

Thinking, but the music was my feelings.

I had a lot of inspiration and drew things that made sense later on. A while after my life was purged. I have made research and discovered some things before my time and I had to destroy it for myself. Then I forgot... I remember all the documentation that I have burnt in that wood... I created a lot of paper content but it was never shared before it was destroyed.

I am now pretty protective of ''saving'' things from destruction.

I want people to create their content and share it so it never disappears, unlike all my research from the time that I was energetic! But anyway, the subject is not my focus anymore. I really want to be sure that the contribution of a user remains. There is no little research and no little result when we can all make our own personal huge progress! I really hope what I saw of the future is real. I saw we will get there...

We'll all be sharing together and it will be fun!

I don't know why I came here like that but that is what I did!

Anyway others of my kind will come with a thousand posts and within a few years my stuff and the attention I had will slowly fade until I am a shadow in the background. I move forward and since I am done spitting out my alien story and I did it in a psych ward, since society cares so much about it. I passed the check up and the final verdict is simple: I was just a [beep] madman!

It is time to move on, now that I have clean my mind and made a little bit more sense to myself, I am going to start to work on something. I am trying to be causal for now because I have other things to do like taking care of my family. I may be in some sort of transition. Frankie knows about it...

I needed to document my testimony the way I could. I did it and now it is written so I do not have to bother with it anymore. I have almost 2000 posts here so if you want to understand, you can read first. If you did, thank you!

I really had a good time writing here!

So,

I am not going to quit.


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I do not know how many followers I have to make me keep going but I was told that I have more than I think. I am pretty sure I have a couple of people that read me so I will keep going. I am not going to let them down. No matter what they find in me. Some people enjoy having an ally while others are looking for an enemy, no matter who it is.

I know the drill, I was trained for it.

In the case of participating in the birth of a new approach, time is the X factor! I mean it's a lot of work but it also takes time for the business to get known. Just time that we use to make it better for tomorrow!

Well, I am talking for myself of course but I like to feel in the team! laugh

I am not doing what I do for today, I am doing it for the future and the next era. Some people are kings of an existing public that will slowly fade but I prefer to invest in the future and take the public that is growing! The people that are tired of the old same communication environment where the noise just makes fights and conflicts.

What about a fun environment where the truth is not a hard butt hurt to get? It is going to be the same hard work, but why so serious and so mad?

Of course nobody wants to talk, we are just used to being trashed and crashed down.

I want to help make it different...

But this is not something I can do without you!

I love my beliefs because they tell me to love and enjoy myself through my human skin.

That makes me want to love the world back that makes me love myself because I am different. Misunderstood? Lovely! If something is not understood then it is mysterious. I like to be a mystery. Oh maybe the story of the kid and the old man already vanished... There I am still on the beach throwing back sea star into the water and who come to tell me to stop?

The old man...

I feel really sad that on this Network I never got along with some people while in real life I fit good with them? Well they are old school and they do not understand the modern concept of internet ID and OCs.... I am not gonna explain this phenomenon that is growing and that we can see in younger generations. That is an online thing!

We are in 2019.

Nowadays we can hide behind a mask and call ourselves whatever to make a show! We live in an era of evolving technological entertainment. I do not want to talk too fast but...

Windows?

You want to look by the windows on your OS? You want to see outside?

I am outside!

Android!

Things are taking an interesting direction...

I wish things online were as fine as in real life!

My mom told me there were nutcrackers like that...



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When I go away it is most of the time to come back better. No offense to anyone or any hard feelings but... I need to get lost! I mean at some point I just can't live stable if I do not have time to be alone to do my personal projects. I have my writing project here that is meant to experiment a new communication approach. Results have been either quiet or disturbing...

I had people on me and I understand. I am sorry if you do not like my existence and the way I communicate it but... I am here to stay! I will begin soon and I see things in a few years and I have a lot of positive hope and interesting expectations.

It took me 12 years to open that door since my first full time employment...

I have not always had a job but I have worked hard on myself to get better. Many real people out there that were there beside of me years ago know that I am not going down that easy. I don't want to fight and I will avoid it but still I have a task here.

For now I am taking things easy, casual and slacked a little bit...

I am getting trained!

The training ground is fun! I am developing my skills and improving my interaction with the public and other users. I am trying to be more simple. I can't write like in French! I thought it would work well but it doesn't... So now I am using the basic English phrase constitution and organization. Called grammatical rules I guess?

You know, like in high school?

Article + Noun + Verb + Preposition + Article + Noun

Or the simplest...

Subject + Verb + Object/Subject

Whatever, I have had a little look on Google and found out that I must relearn English because I am too much of a Frenchman! So here I am with a little calibration. A little improvement that I hope will make a difference... I am learning English and I am still at my baby stage, but I am going to make my first steps and then I will call myself a toddler!

I wish I grow up at the same pace as my kid!

We are sooooo baby! But we are partners in crime... Him and I, we have a sacred pact of life! Just like we have with his mom. We are to be together no matter what, through the best and the worst. We got some serious soul bounding here in this family! That kid is not only my son, he is my partner! My business partner...

I have had a lot of time to work on a ''return'' while I was taking a break but then... I just decided to come back letting things go like they happened! I came back with an official position as entry level moderator. That is good! I could make it flash a lot more but my main goal is far from bossing around.

I want to protect people from the actual mentality and behavior of this field of research. I am not talking about all of them! But... Seriously everywhere I went in UFO and paranormal, there is no way to share a word without being harassed for proof, trashed and insulted or asked for education degree. From what I could understand...

Every social class and personality profile has people involved in this community. It reaches everyone. We can have here an experimented educated professional to bring science and methodical work but... Also some people that they know nothing and they are just regular guy looking for answers. Givers and takers. I give my content the way I do!

What I meant is that we can have a anonymous user that was graduated at Oxford or Harvard with all the content and... We can have a subscribed member that has no education nor diploma.




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My professional field is mass customer service, telemarketing and interrogatory. Some people they think I do not have that skill but I do. Working with the public when you do want to offer your best to the client is hard work and a lot of data collection is required. Just getting to know the client. Their interest, motivation and expectation. Working for survey was a lot of learning about interrogatory. Internet technical support too because every call is an investigation that is expecting a fix.

Telemarketing was the hardest with interrogation because everything has to take 2 minutes or so... I was taking longer and giving results never seen before. To make a sale you got to know what the buyer wants. You create a need...

Working with the public is a passion that I have because every call of duty is different. Here for me, every post is to be analyzed for profiling and scanned for any violation of our code of conduct. I feel sad how borderline things are lately and I wish I could make things quicker but I am still at an experimental stage.

Professionally it is the entry level, the magic of employment. I love the training ground!

I love to feel at work.

I am done being a slacker...

I do not want to be as rigorous as before but at least I want to be vigorous! I was good and successfully helping almost every each of my clients but I was vicious and I still am at some point. I am working on a new working pace and mentality but I will keep my old school style.

I know my credibility is dead for some people that did not understand what I am doing and it will never be built back up. I am aware of it. I am an experimented professional working in the public and I know the drill. But it is in sales and solicitation that I have learnt the big rule: 1/10 never buy and 1/10 always buy. You ask as many people as you can, always! Before some people will just say yes but... Some people will just say no!

You get one person for sure for every ten people that was offered the product. No need to work...

Well that is what I was told and it worked in the past.

This is mass telemarketing. You reach the most people you can. No matter if they buy or not. Get as much of those that buy as you can. 10% of the market for free if you just try. That is what they said in the business. Of course you can have your percentage increased or decreased.

I tried so I know I got something!

What I am trying to sell is a dream. Something I see possible and happening.

A world where we care for each other. A judgement system based on empathy and understanding. Just something better and stronger for all of us. I do not know what is the deal with you and I will probably never know. You might be looking for my crown or maybe you are just some random stranger passing by. I do not know!

I was prepared to know about who is possibly reading me. Communication is a passion for me and I have been working on a new model for years. I am not sure yet if I really know what I am doing but...

I'm in!



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An important fact is that I am not a professional thief. The content I have from previous employers is confidential in most cases and regarding paperwork of the past: I can not legally disclose details on my interesting jobs. When I say that I do not steal I mean it! I will provide my own contribution as a given property to aliendisc.

As I normally do with my employer...

I am not a thief getting my position and that is where I refused many opportunities. I am not accepting a position that is kicking someone out. I only accept vacant or newly created positions. I do not steal... I have been offered many times in my life to be a kicker but I have my professional personal code of conduct. I can accept a bumping job though.

I mean bumping someone up to make a vacant position to get as promotion.

That is a fun thing to do but you have to keep in mind that you are bumping up your boss so... Think twice!

I had shitty jobs but for now there is no point talking about it. The ones that are interesting have signed confidentiality agreements and by law I can not tell much.

I believe in disclosure but what would I disclose if I go to jail?

I do not know how far my words are heard so I am not taking the risk to spread irrelevant and unrelated information illegally...

It has been about 10 years so actually I could talk about it legally!

I am just making a silly writing prose in one specific mind that may never read it, who knows? I think it is after 2 years that I can talk about it but it is not needed or actually useful so... I am going to do like I always do and I will promote my previous employment positively because that is what the professionals do most of the time. There are cases where I can talk [beep] though!

If I was victim of a professional fraud like the Store ''Le Rouet'' in a mall in Laval that never paid me for my week of work!

I never cared to be honest. I just love to work!

I have been volunteer in a community internet access center for 3 years. Hanging around people that did not have access to internet at home on our devices and network access. It was fun and I was in high school. Summer was paid! I volunteered in my high school too. Many things, but the most interesting was the secretary job.

When I was in grade 9 I volunteered to take the school front desk in lunch time to cover the secretary. It was a really fun experience. I was working with teachers and the direction team as much as for the public. Taking inbound calls and client walking to the front desk. I was having one hour of lunch time every 2 weeks when I started if I remember well. So many students can have a spot and experiment a professional position.

I kicked everyone out! I took the whole schedule to myself...

Then I learnt, I had the job all for me anyone else was out. Professionally it was great but I walked and studied in that school and many people have lost something. They were around me but I did not care... I did not even see them and I know that I have been hated for this. At school, I was already working and my social life was really low.

I know now that by consciousness even if I could, I wouldn't ever be a replacement. I say that because many time in my life my eyes were closed and I did not realized how bad I was making the world around me because I was successful in nearly anything I was joining. I am thinking of some people that started to grow in a shadow after I arrived and that they could even leave or get fired so I have my position.

When I was at school I could be hiding everywhere I had many ''jobs'' and if I was not in class most of the time I was working or just walking around. Work was my shield...



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I love to volunteer! I did it many times...

The one I loved the most was in a hospital. I was doing escort! I was moving people in a wheel chair from their pick-up location to the haircut salon. Many people would have said it was not the most important position I could volunteer for, but it was awesome. You know why?

Hair grows everywhere...

I was asked to move everywhere and every department of the hospital. I had good understanding and care of the patient. The salon was run by a private entrepreneur so I was working beside of a private business within the hospital. This service is not charged by the hospital, it is charged by the salon.

I loved a lot of regular patient. Especially Alzheimer people! You know when they did not remember me it is magical. I was a new person or a stranger every time. It was like reintroducing yourself all the time and making progress doing it. I remember the person but they did not. I knew the person but they did not know me.

All about memory

They say aliens have developed a technology to make people forget their experiences? The brain does it naturally, and not only from Alzheimer's. I have met one person with neurological damage after being beaten up. Hard hits on the head and the damage are there and not reversible.

Do I remember?

Yes!

But I do not recall...

It's up to you to remind me!



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Xeno.....I am focused on your waist down...and Ia m not being sexy or rude.

Explain?


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I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2015 with 2 opposite opinions from doctors that were not considered in my files. Still my case seems to be mysterious to them but categorized as schizophrenia.


Based on my understanding, this is a kind of brain disorder of split personality?


I have here a validation report:-

Schizophrenia involves a range of problems with thinking (cognition), behavior or emotions. Signs and symptoms may vary, but usually involve delusions, hallucinations or disorganized speech, and reflect an impaired ability to function. Symptoms may include: Delusions


If that is the judgement of a psychiatrist, then what he/she is saying is that your HQ is damaged.
Anything that you may say, no matter how real it appears to you, may not actually be there!

If that being the case, where does Xeno come in?

The thing which this lot do not know is what the name actually means?

It means STRANGER from the word Xenos
With this is in the bilateral sense or just a falsification of identity is not clear to me.

I am not trying to be rude here....but a lot of them here are not a as clever as they make out.

With nearly 2000 of your posts it had only taken 6 of them for me to understand you better.

You are not a 'bot' and do believe what you are saying.

The mind is still a very complex instrument and despite how yours may seem to be malfunctioning you still make an interesting case.

(to me)







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George, with your response to this post its very plain to see that you haven't read too many (if any!) of Xeno's posts. He's explained this part already. He's gone over that he does not know if what he believes is real, but he chooses to believe it, which is his choice and only his!

I do not know if my abduction story is real, but it felt very real to me, and so I like to believe that it was real. I have no proof of it happening, and I do have a diagnosis - which I am scared to say - because of the way people treat Xeno when he talks about his. It's very sad.

Please George, would it hurt you to be more careful and understanding? I understand that you're just trying to understand, but there are better ways to go about it.

Maybe go and read some of Xeno's posts and then come back? smile

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George I wrote about 150 posts concerning my diagnosis. If you have any questions.


PLEASE READ


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Scizophrenia just means you produce more dophamine to feel better with the effects it comes with as fantasing for example because you feel better, it`s an adaption to an bad enviroment to feel better, that`s also why almost all kinder people in society has this diagnosis because they don`t act mean like others to feel better

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I think that half of the DSM-V is just giving medical labels to personality type...


I find that sad that some people still fall in the trap of it...


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Originally Posted by Xeno
George I wrote about 150 posts concerning my diagnosis. If you have any questions.


PLEASE READ



When one person writes and the other person responds, it is plain common sense that the discussion takes place in the 'here-now' and not 1957 posts of past reading.

I am afraid I do have more better things to do than to read nearly 2000 posts of unrelated information that may or may not have a relevant connection to what you are talking about. A simple 'yes' or 'no' can be more fore-fitting.

"Oh here comes Xeno....but wait.........the information is there....I will purchase another 4 realms of A4 and ptint it all off to read when I can sit down for 10 hours"


I think not Xeno....you either want to 'talk' or just carry on with another 15 or so pages with your life story.

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Originally Posted by frankie85
Scizophrenia just means you produce more dophamine to feel better with the effects it comes with as fantasing for example because you feel better, it`s an adaption to an bad enviroment to feel better, that`s also why almost all kinder people in society has this diagnosis because they don`t act mean like others to feel better

Dophamine (spelling) energises the rate of brain activity and increases the bombardment of brain cells.

It helped kill my father when he had Parkinson's Disease.

It eventually screws up the brain by wearing it out.

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I am going to carry on!

Have a good day sir!


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George, with your response to this post its very plain to see that you haven't read too many (if any!) of Xeno's posts. He's explained this part already. He's gone over that he does not know if what he believes is real, but he chooses to believe it, which is his choice and only his!

So????

I also explained that he believes this to be real.


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I do not know if my abduction story is real, but it felt very real to me, and so I like to believe that it was real. I have no proof of it happening, and I do have a diagnosis - which I am scared to say - because of the way people treat Xeno when he talks about his. It's very sad.


It is also sad that he had been diagnosed with schizophrenia and whether he believes this Roswell thing to be real, is not what Xeno says, but down to his own view which is too far fetched from reality and needs better emphasis. In order to be believed, it does matter whether we love him to bits, if a mental illness is there then it is not going to be easy to accept what he believes. It may be that he does not want to be believed. In that case we waste time reading?

Yes it is true....I had only read about two or three of Xeno's posts. Is that a crime?

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Please George, would it hurt you to be more careful and understanding? I understand that you're just trying to understand, but there are better ways to go about it.



A person has to first make sense to me. I am not here as a psychiatric nurse but a plain reader trying to make sense out of a person who seems to be making little effort in projecting himself, other than to explain his problems.

I am not going to treat Xeno as a sick patient with benevolence. He makes a post and as far as I am concerned I go by that post and discuss his points. So far I had not been able to do that and this is why I had made an effort to understand him better. Perhaps I should just laugh?

We are not here to discuss patience care. This is up to his doctors. I am here for discussion and if Xeno talks a load of c*ap, I will give my view on it and NOT him!


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Maybe go and read some of Xeno's posts and then come back?


I am glad you said 'maybe?'


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Originally Posted by George
Yes it is true....I had only read about two or three of Xeno's posts. Is that a crime?

No, it's not a crime, but it does make it seem rather silly to me that you're asking questions and pointing things out that have already been brought up in the past and can be easily found within a few minutes. 🤷‍♀️

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