A lot of people have a feeling of an existence beyond their actual consciousness or what they can remember. They call themselves a lot of different things. Alien, starseed, angel, otherkin and even werewolf or vampire. I have met a lot of people who have thought their forced human self is not real at some point. Many people found with confidence what they identify to and what they think they are, confirmed or not...
Then we find most of the population calling themselves humans around here. What is it? Labels? I think it is... That's the word I was looking for to understand what it is that I am seeking by calling myself an alien. I am looking for a different label. I'm looking not to call myself a human because I do not feel that I fit the human label.
I have been looking for a label to define my difference. For a while I could think of a starseed but I am not much into vibrations. I can contribute and feel them but I have other interests. I want to entertain and amaze. I want to make a show. From crazy creepy pasta to the truth of my heart.
What is my label?
I have never heard of anything that fits the strong feeling I have inside until I remembered what I was told by some aliens: I am a cosmic larva! That is my label: Cosmic
I feel the melody of life in things like it was transferred from its creator, the artist. Especially music! My emotions go into what is the expression, the feeling of it. When I was younger I was feeling that someday I would raise myself beyond what I was told. I was sad to be in the present because I was feeling my distant future. I always knew that all the hard stuff had a purpose. I laid down looking at the stars, I sung my sadness to the cosmos and cried to the sky.
I have never been scared to show them I was not feeling good! With me, it's all about the meaning and the feeling, it's what is making life in me... I feel I am not human or anything I've heard of in ufology. In esoterism, the cosmic being and its escalation is a bit more known and I have read some stuff there.
So this is the label I claim: Cosmic
If you want to give me another label it is up to you! Since I have diagnosis and stuff I do not think it can be that bad...
Plus qu'hier et moins que demain / More than yesterday and less than tomorrow