I don't know by name neither by heart. I barely understand how I feel most of the time. Tonight the coyotes are howling in the dark and it creeps me out and that is not normal. As far as I know I remember a police officer, coyote... GM
Real friend of mine.
Here we are an heartbeat and we recognize each other when we share the look of a loving soul that cares about other people.
Oh they are not quite ready yet we heard? I can't listen I am so [beep
] scared to lose everything again because of a decision. I feel life is risk and every time I think it is going to get boring with nothing new... Poof! Development...
I always have that issue about the boundaries of being a disclosure militant but also a secret keeper. Something is beautiful but so new in my life right now. The love is going so great and we enjoy life. Why do I feel so weird about it?
My past... So many of that thing we call [beep
] that at some point when things are.... Wait.
I am just here to try to understand what is happening here and why I am so scared of it!
I think life and survival around that world down here is to be together. That is, to be honest, something I don't really do that well. I want it but I am still working on my paradiese. A world from a collective of mind that share what they have to offer taking what they need to be well. We can be it.
Is it a day dream? What is a day dream? I don't see any on my small screen. It is too blue here and I have a fortress of hard memories to keep me going. I like the blue light in the dark of my room but my buzz is green...
I am rolling the truth with a blank paper I know, I know.
I am not allowed to share something right now but I can say that life will never be the same
A while ago something went wrong with my mind and I yelled so now... I feel this and it has been on the table for a while. I had another opportunity to open myself to a new world beyond anything I had before. Something I have been imagining since I am a little kid that has finally started.
I purposely killed a huge part of the public following me and now, soon, some real stuff is going to start.
My friend said "In due time"
So I [beep
] crashed paranoid and then I got over it and told myself that does not mean I am going to be hurt. O.o
I am not going to be the spoiler since they are also people I know IRL (or knew) that read me here... I want so bad to share something that is making some more sense to my life and how enjoyable it is getting to see the future.
Well I have shared this website and ID with some people IRL and sometime something is happening to me and because I need them to wait, you know?
This is what we call in Québécois "Être une agace pissette"
Actually I am just writing a thread to say that my absence and silence of past times is not due to the nonexistence of things to say. I have a lot to share but I am not in the mood of sitting and writing pretty much. I am doing it tonight because I am on a nightwatch mission!
I have to keep myself awake and tell my public that I got bored of sitting my [beep
] and I don't feel writing that much. But [beep
] ! There are big things happening here! I don't have the whole world reading me but I have a few views and that is enough to me.
So, hey, you. You my reader. Thank you very much and I will be back soon with updates, new stories and information, an evolved version of me. First is to break the wall of my fear. The fear...
Lately we have been busy and through new things, a chapter that begins but at that point...
In due time, my friend